“Busy is the state of your calendar, hurried is the state of your mind.” -Kimberly Mervyn
I wrote this down at my Holy Yoga Immersion Experience. This week, it has popped back up as my calendar has filled up. I kept making a wrong turn on my way to teach a yoga class. My daughter was in the car and was laughing at me. I said, “sorry, I was on autopilot.” Realizing she didn’t know what that meant, I explained how sometimes our brains take over and proceed with the most common course of action. I was hurried, my soul was anxious, I am starting a new business and with that comes the fears of failing, the stress of fitting it all in, the financial anxieties… you get it.
So yesterday I decided that while my calendar is full, that does not mean I need to feel hurried. That does not give me permission to snap at people or be short with them. That does not mean that I can’t find the time on said calendar to slow down and just be. Be in the presence of my maker and be thankful to him for the many blessings that are filling my calendar right now.
In my yoga classes this week, I talked about stepping out of the boat in faith.
Matthew 14:22-33 (NIV) says
22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it. 25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. 27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” 28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” 29 “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” 31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” 32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
I am so much like Peter in this passage. I doubt; I begin to sink and I cry out to God to help! He never disappoints but I imagine he often says “you of little faith, why do you doubt?” Why would he call me out onto the water if I was going to sink? The reality is I begin to sink when I take my eyes off Him. This last week, I felt that hurried state in my soul and felt like I was sinking. Today, I choose to look up at my maker and trust. Having faith doesn’t mean I don’t have spreadsheets, it doesn’t mean I don’t do my best to manage my business, but what it does mean is that I do my best and forget the rest!!! He’s got me. He will not let me sink, I just have to keep my eyes fixed.
Psalm 20:6-8 (NIV) says
6 Now this I know: The LORD gives victory to his anointed. He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary with the victorious power of his right hand. 7 Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. 8 They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm
In Holy Yoga we talk about rooting down to rise up. Today, let’s root down in the Lord and rise up victorious.